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Norman Mailer - “Writing books is the closest men ever come to childbearing.”

Alright, Love in the time of Cholera comes out in another week and a bit.  I most likely will see it.  The book caused this terrible longing which wouldnt go away, perpetual, i actually realized that i felt comfortable in its overwhelming blanket.  Comfortable longing, no risk of loss.

Looking back at the four main characters well five.
You got the buddy, the Woman he loves, her dad and the doctor she marries.
The buddy wants to be with the Woman
Her dad says no and takes her away.
The Woman keeps up with the buddy.
Then she sees the buddy, wosh- slip away
Then a similarity to midnights children except without the sheet
The doctor attends the woman
Likes what he finds
the Womans’ dad works his magic again only in the opposite way he did with the simple buddy.
She says hell no, then they finally go
The buddy miserable as can be
Sleeps with all the women outside of his brothel
for a long time.
The doctor and Woman come back from Europe with babies.
happy as can be
doc sleeps meets this woman he cant pass up.
so he goes for it
Woman goes to visit family
doc brings her home
The End
The buddy did get a mirror as a consolation.

The moral of the story is that if you keep your gaze of love set on one who passes up your chance, you gain a perpetual sweater of longing.  You find yourself attempting to replace the sweater with the comfort of woman after woman however none will ever be as snug.

So lets be daring and say two people can be made for each other.  Their quality of life increases and they become better individuals through one anothers company.  They both have complete faith, respect, attraction, intimacy with one another.

At some point its a pure numbers game. If you think of all the souls in the world,  two souls finding each other and matching up is very good probability.  The quality of that match, well thats another story.  Now at a certain level souls have a much higher selectivity.  Lessons dont need to be revisited, previous mistakes have been changed.  Karmic Debt paid, The realization that we made the choice to experience this experience.  Sartre is probably happy if he is reading this.  So we play this match game.

Different Levels,

The match game
Attraction - Sexual, fluidity, grace, physical health
Respect - forthright, intellect, flexible, motivation
Social - hobbies, friends, sports, animals, places
Intimacy - Ability to cross lines, break social mores
Financial - Stability, Ability and Growth Potential
Faith - Open, Common belief system/practices

At least its more sophisticated than playing war, more like go fish.

Order in stone Ten Commandments

1- God is Lord - Ultimate Authority - Not the French or English version of leadership.
2 - Dont hold to an image of self - Heraclitus - Everything is Fire, in Flux.
3 - Do Not think the God in vain - Do Not Doubt not the power of God the Ultimate Authority or use God as defensive shield (god given authority), no one can harness the expansiveness of god.  Respect this inability of man
4 - Remember the Sabbath day, keep it holy.  Take time for meditation and contemplation.  You deserve these moments with God.
5 - Honor your dad and mom.  Its the least you can do, with the life they have provided you.
6 - Do Not Murder - Do not kill people.
7 - Do Not Commit Adultery - do not engage sex that willfully and maliciously interferes with marriage relations.  Sex is an experience of gods love,  Respect its sanctity.
8 - Do Not Steal - Buy things of value through worthwhile work, for that is the value of work and property
9 -   Do Not Bare False Witness - Do not judge or set another in a mold of your understanding.
10 - Do Not Covet -  Covet is Desire that interferes, blameworthy.  Allow others the ability to appreciate and experience what they have without interference.  This is also reflected in their opinions, number nine.

Seven Deadly Sins
To sin is to live without awareness of mistake.

- Pride - Check number six of review its on Cicero “no man is an island”-Donne
- Envy - Work with what you got you, if you desire, manifest through work
- Wrath - rash judge dread style,
- Greed - Envy Manifestation through force at anothers loss. If you harness anothers work in synergy and make a group better, you are fine.
- Lust - Not limited to Sexual Excesses but more so to objectify the beauty of anothers shared love.
- Gluttony - Anything in excess is not healthy
- Sloth - sucked into the existential vaccum as a result of pride.  Think of Gibran when you think of work.
When you think of work you are a flute through whose heart the whispering of the hours turns to music. To Love life through labor is to be intimate with life’s inmost secret.  All work is empty save when there is love, for work is love made

There was a time in high school i asked this girl out to a dance.  This other girl told me i should ask her, long story, no end.  So this girl who i was asking out never answered she just ran away, its was a  rather strange, like nothing before.  Needless to say she had a date already and didnt want to let me down.  No big deal right, so she totally avoids eye contact at all cost for the longest time.

Then one day we are sitting in English, senior comp, we have a paper due right, must be typed.  So she is telling someone how her’s is written and not typed.  Needs to be typed.  So the teacher walks in and she asks him if she can turn it in late, so the guy is like, no, its due today.

Alright, so i interject, the reason Annie’s paper isnt typed is because earlier today we got into a fight and i ripped it up and threw it in the garbage.
I know now it was wrong, i shouldnt have lied.

The teacher looks at her and is like is this true, she looks at me like are you sure this is all right, i reassure her yeah just tell him.  So she says yes.  The teacher is like ok, turn it in tomorrow.

I mean seriously from the teachers perspective, he sees her as selfless, protecting me from getting in trouble for ripping her paper up, and myself admitting fault signifies that i take responsibility for her paper not being there.  And to punish me would go against her original request, so just give the girl another day.

That’s what happens when you watch the breakfast club over a 1000 times.
but seriously , Its an imperfect world, screws fall out all the time.

The kicker, the guy that went on the date with her, reportedly said to her after picking her up, “you are so hot you are steaming up the windows.”

Alright, i’m talking to this lady yesterday,  Shes from California, like the TV.  She is telling me she just flew back from Arizona because her 26 year old son died.  There is a charge for 6200 for a funeral home.

I’m like are you seriously telling me this, so i look into my guide book, it says tell the customer i’m sorry for your loss.
Of course i instead ask, how did the he die?
So she says he had some prescription drugs and a bottle of alcohol.

After a very long pause she tells me he died in his sleep.

What the f—,  He died in his sleep?

this book below, my atlas of economic indicators more enjoyable read.

Henry Ford said, ““Integrity is crucial for business success - once you can fake that, you’ve got it made.”

A Henry Ford website quick fact.  Financed a pacifist expedition to Europe during WWI?
He was tried by the united states government for treason, for backing the Germans.

I had a chemistry class this summer and the professor was holding Einstein and the great American physicists in high regard.  Passing over Heisenburg, the most amazing physicist the world has ever witnessed.  The Uncertainty Principle i learned from my high school chemistry teacher who i believe gave me a D, as a result of not feeling the need to participate in labs that just prove points, without any new information.

Oh and about the movie i just watched are the republicans or the democrates blue or red.  I dont know how this works.  Someone post an answer please, this is john cusacks greatest film, it even has a skiing scene that trumps better off dead.  And is the essence of this thought with a blind lack of integrity for quicker growth.

So i’m standing in target waiting at the cash register and this lady starts yelling sir, sir, Move or something.
So i move and then look over at this middle aged woman and politely say fuck you in a calm reserved fashion.
The lady turns and is like whataat, you talk to people like that.
Calmly and collectively i say “i wouldnt learn manners from you.”
She replies, “obviously”
me, “you couldnt even say excuse me.”

So then she ends up looking at me and saying something about me being righteous.  Which of course i ignore as for i felt like our interaction was enough.  She is flustered doesnt know what she is doing, ends up knocking the credit card reader off the counter.  Big mess.  I saw her when i got into the parking lot and it looked like the whole incident had caused her to slow down.

I got home and looked up this righteous word, not being the most knowledgeable person on such things.

right·eous (ri‘ch?s)adj.

1. Morally upright; without guilt or sin: a righteous parishioner.
2. In accordance with virtue or morality: a righteous judgment.
3. Morally justifiable: righteous anger. See synonyms at moral.

After i thought it over i think i was righteous, i said an offensive statement politely that i felt needed to be heard in order to point out her crassitude.

And for you people that think i make up words
crassitude
[ad. L. crassitudo, f. crassus, crass]  /KRAS uh t(y)ud/
1) obs. : thickness (as of a solid body)
2) the quality or state of being crass: grossness; excessive dullness of intellect, obtuseness; also, an instance of this

The french man came back from the bathroom his seat occupied by the fucking prick.  He at this point didnt know the man who had taken his seat was a fucking prick, that realization was pointed out by me after the french man went for an unoccupied seat and the fucking prick said hey we are using that…
So i of course pointed out, that guy is a fucking prick.

So i’m staying at mugurs on the futon and mugur is on the floor trying to set up a bed for himself, when talk of the night lands on the fucking prick.  Right then mugurs brother who at the time was taking up mugurs entire queen bed quitely shouts from the other room, can you guys keep it down.  Mugur Yells NO.  As he looks to me his laughing comrade, he says right then i felt really offended.
So of course i point out for the next five min inbetween laughs that this guy is a fucking prick.

Then the next day i wake up after giving alex and his girlfriend the futon to find this fucking prick in the hallway between the tv and the futon doing yoga.  So i sit down and turn on the tv, and the fucking prick is like hey,,,,, what the hell.  He gets all upset then finds a corner for his exercise.
so of course i point out that that guys is a fucking prick.

The moral of the story is dont be a fucking prick.  Think things through, dont claim ownership of common ground, and show dick some respect.

My new york interpretations of the word Hypocrite followed by the Merriam-webster definition

I was in New York this past week and i’m not really sure what the deal is there every third person is carrying a movie camera.  Maybe they have a lot of great “idea”s, or maybe they all want to make a movie that means something.  Or maybe they want someone to see them make the movie…to see life from their point of view.  Any way you look at they are all assholes
1 : a person who puts on a false appearance of virtue or religion

PS.  Check out the picture shows on my page that i put together while in NEW YORK CITY

Alex pissed me off as he told this this girl about his religious organization and how it is so great, trying to hook the fish with his bait.
2 : a person who acts in contradiction to his or her stated beliefs or feelings

PS. dont worry i gave alex shit as i yelled at him,”Dont push your beliefs on other people.”

I was driving on the highway a couple or more years back.  A guy wanted to get over into my lane, using blinkers and all.  So i slow down and the bastard doesnt get over and i slow down a little more never gets over.  So i speed up and as i pass him i look over to see no eye contact only a middle finger raised in its place.

Now this pisses me off to this day, if i saw that kid i would give him a rather good talking to.
First of all the middle finger is ment to be used as an offensive defensive stance. You cant waive it at someone as a starting offensive position thats just not polite.
That is what the whole hand waive is for, hello stranger as you waive with your hand, then stranger ignores you, then at this point you say well take that. shooting the middle finger.

But for blood sake none of this is suppose to happen before or without the event of eye contact.